Surrendering A Worry…

It’s hard to Surrender a worry, especially about those we love.

I wanted to share with you a little about how worry and surrender really work together, by sharing one of mine. Because I know that this type of surrender can sound a little “pie in the sky”.

My son-in-law has stage four sarcoma cancer. For a few months he was healed and my daughter and he were able to have the most beautiful wedding and honeymoon. And the precious gift of a few months to just enjoy each other and life! But the cancer returned this fall.

As I write this, tears fall. Their suffering breaks my heart, as I am sure it breaks theirs at times. Their courage and faith through all of this is truly inspiring. To give this burden to Jesus is difficult, very difficult. And I give it to Jesus, and take it back. And then give I it back to Jesus again.

You see, I want a certain outcome with less suffering. There are nights that I spend in worry and tears. But this is not what Jesus wants for me or for them. And so with almost a physical turning, I turn back to Jesus and give the burden of their care to Him. For I know that Jesus loves them even more than I do.

And although I pray for them everyday. And, of course, I pray for healing and less suffering for both of them. I always end my prayers with “If it be God’s Will. As I always do.

We can choose how we act. It can be harder to choose how we feel. But it is here that Jesus can help us. Just ask Him. Does that mean we will never feel sad again? No. But it does mean, that if we give our burdens to Jesus, He will carry us through 🙂